A lot of times I get these weird gut feelings before big days in the mountains that are unexplainable. Sometimes I shake them off, knowing it’s just nerves or anxiety, other times I listen and back off. Our first attempt at the Death Couloir it was extremely clear which path to choose.
I was camped in my truck at the trailhead the night before we were supposed to climb the line. Pondella was set to meet me at 5am the next morning to start the mission. Crawling into my sleeping bag I got a weird feeling that was different than anything I had felt before a big adventure. It was a weird sense of foreboding. I noted it, but with nothing to be done about it, I settled off to sleep.
Not long after falling asleep I had another experience that I’d never had before. I was visited in a dream by a young woman, who whispered to me, “Turn around.” Right after she said this, I woke up with a shock as my truck started rocking violently in the wind. No sign had ever told me to bail so vividly. Right then and there I decided we weren’t going up that next day.
Two weeks later we made our second attempt. It had been snowing pretty consistently the week before, but only a couple inches at a time, no substantial dumps to warrant any alarming avalanche danger. Mount Morrison had been in the clouds for most of the week though, so we didn’t really know how much fresh snow might be up there. Hoping there might be just the perfect amount of stable snow, we decided to go have a look, and climb up to the base of the ice cliff to see what it really looked like.
As we were climbing up in the pre-dawn hours, we started to notice gentle spindrifts cascading down the rock face. The closer we got to the base of the ice cliff the more the spindrifts grew in intensity. Arriving at the base we spent a good twenty minutes debating whether it was safe to climb. Just as we decided to rope up and give it a try, a massive spindrift avalanche came crashing down above us. We clung to our boards and dove for shelter in the small cove as a massive cloud of snow engulfed us. Needless to say, we instantly bailed and made it across to the opposite side of the drainage just in time to see another even larger pocket rip out in the couloir. Had we been climbing, this natural avalanche would have surely blown us off the mountain.
Two strikes down. I began wondering if this line was really meant to be. What if our ambitions are greater than the boundary of reasonable safety? Perhaps the line remains forbidden fruit for good reason?